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It's been a loooong time Xanga

//My Buzz//

I have not been on here in quite some time, it's funny how with the birth of Myspace and the "NEW" Facebook how everyone made such a great transition. So if any of you still use this site still you might as well just add me as a friend on Facebook since it's opened to the public now... lol. look me up Sunchez Smith.

I've been MIA

"What about your friends"

   Like I said in part 1, it's funny how friends turn out after so long of knowing them. most of us never think that those to hold close to us can turn out to be so Selfish, Foolish, and one who's quick to Criticize someone.

  I've been noticing a lot lately that a friend of mine has been having a problem with criticizing me. Now I know I'm not perfect at all, but if you want to know what I feel about this, here it is... For one I don't think that someone who's SELFISH is in any position to criticize anyone, especially when they have not come to grips with their own self image and have problems they need to deal with. Further more my friend needs to realize that I am not perfect, but at least I can say that I have not fallen victim to any of my hardships, so I'm not one who need to accept any criticism from her.

   I've also learned just how much a person can take your kindness for granted. I've done sooo much for this friend, whenever she wanted to go somewhere, get dropped off, or even just send me on a DUMMY MISSION, I was there. I even went and sat at the hospital a few times with her because she was not feeling good. I could've been out with other friends and enjoying my night. Although I was pissed off, a lot of the time I never even showed it. But you know what I got in return??? I'll tell you.

1. I got played when; we were supposed to see Rosa Parks' body at the museum.

2. I got played when, she said she would come to the hospital with me to see a friend, but then got mad over the phone over a simple conversation, and decided she suddenly had plans.

3. Had her preach to me about being ready to go home, but when I was doing so, she decides to tell a third party that , she told me things were going on, as if she had not just been saying she was ready to go home. (That was actually old, but she still thought she was right in this)

Now that I don't do as much for... you know what I get?? Sarcasm

You would think by now she would realize that sarcasm is like a second language with me, so I'm right there with you.

There are many more situations and the list can go on and on, but I try not to be one who bores my audience.

NOW WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU WERE TO GO THROUGH THIS, WITH A FRIEND??

Damn, I wonder how much trouble this entry is going to get me in, I've tried talking but I feel that the results were limited due to the fact that she thought she could justify the problems.

I really hate Xanga, where the hell is everyone ??

Jan. 31, 2006 — Coretta Scott King, widow of slain civil rights activist Martin Luther King Jr., has died. She was 78.

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Jouney to Manhood, pt 1

(Seeing the truth)

What I've learned ?

 this entry was inspired my "4" people in my life, that hold these qualities.

   When you meet people especially at a young age in some cases it's funny how the other person turns out. I've noticed that I have a hyper-active "NICE" gene that runs very strong through my veins. Therefore I have a problem with trying to please people. I've been this way for a long time, maybe even my whole life. I really don't see a real reason to change it, it's just when people take advantage of it that it becomes a problem.

   I've come to the realization that a few people that I would say I'm close to now fall into a category that I call "Dangerous Emotional Minds" or "Mentally Unstable Minds", have been taking advantage of me and I realize this now. I call this category of people Mentally Unstable Minds mainly because I have looked at and evaluated these people. They all for some reason seem to crave "ATTENTION", and are very quick to try to point out your flaws but refuse to look in the mirror.  They also seem to lack a certain sense of independence meaning, they always want you to hold their hand in order for them to explore the world. (and no I DON'T literally mean that you have to hold their hands). They always seem to always have a reason or excuse as to why a positive change in their life did not happen. These people for some odd reason also seem to be very depressed and not satisfied with themselves or the way they lived or are living.

Once more, I am NOT saying I'm perfect. But I refuse to fall victem to the trials and tribulations of the world, Especially when it starts interfering with friendships. Now that I think about it, this just got personal...

1. Don't try to point things out about me, when you have your own problems that you really need to improve.

2. Realize that you are in no position to point anything out about me, I feel that I have accomplished soooooo much in the passed 4 years of my life that millions of people wish they could have experienced.

3. and furthermore, please realize that I know that I'm kinda going through stuff myself, and even was living in an abusive relationship and still have people that in my family I wanna meet. BUT I WOULD NEVER FUCK UP A FRIENDSHIP or USE anyone. I'm only 21 I'm supposed to be confused about alot.

   Maybe you should think and realize that's why when you compare me to your "Average Joe" I'm nothing like them, cause I'm an individual, and what's my famous saying ???

"Being an Individual is very beneficial in todays society"